So late afternoon I will see my oncologist for the first time.
I know it sounds silly, but I’ve been nervous about this meeting.
There are two things that I am a bit phobic about when it comes to hospitals:
Needles (yep, still…) and side effects from pills.
So, … I may be given a 5 – 10 year script for tomoxifen, which is a hormone suppressor. My cancer was estrogen and progesterone positive so it feeds on estrogen. The tomoxifen mimicks estrogen and bonds to the cancer’s receptors, subsequently starving the cell.
Yes, there was no cancer detected in me but this tomoxifen is designed to attach to any rogue cells that may have escaped elsewhere in my body, microscopically through the blood stream.
I’ve grit my teeth as I researched the side effects. I’ve done my own ‘poll’ to find out from real women what they’ve experienced and some have had some pretty severe effects. And some haven’t.
So, I’ve come to this conclusion in the event I am encouraged to take it:
I have a boat load of concerns and questions.
If after all is addressed, I feel it is in my best interest to take it, I’ll give it a go.
I want to address any potential side effect beforehand and find out how I can help myself naturally decrease the odds of those risks. I don’t want to be a medical mess and take pills to take away side effects and then worry about those side effects too.
Still visualizing, hoping and praying the doc saying, “Your chance of recurrence with or without this pill is nearly equal.” But, just like before surgery, I had my visualizations, my hopes and prayers and then I gave the outcome to God in Faith.
I’m doing that with this pill too – and then I know everything will be okay.
Doing this and especially today:
“in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:6 NIV
Quality over Quantity:
“Life is not a journey to the grave with the
intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body,
but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming — WOW– What a Ride!”
End of the day:
Will you look at that setting crescent moon?!
I can’t wait to get back to that in photography! Whoa, it just mesmerizes me!